i know everyone has been complaining about the winter (with good reason) but it wasn’t really bothering me that much. until yesterday. yesterday, i got irrationally pissed off at the disgusting gray/black slush all over chicago, the people driving like a-holes on roads that have not yet been cleared of snow, the absolutely ridiculous potholes that are surely ruining our tires, and the general grossness that is this winter. i tried to battle our cabin fever with a few outings and such. it kind of helped. but what would really really help is the ability to drink beer on some patio in a tiny pair of shorts.
9:00am emmett always wakes up really happy. i can usually hear him kicking his legs in excitement as i walk over to his crib to pick him up. he’s usually grinning but this morning he was laughing out loud. it’s such an awesome way to start the day.
10:00am getting bundled up for our first outing.
11:00am at a friend’s house for a late breakfast. we had coffee, sparkling juice, tortilla espanola, salad, strawberries and mangoes, and banana bread made with bourbon, chocolate chips, and toasted coconut. it was delicious and the company, per usual, was just lovely.
noon couch conversations with emmett/playing with emmett
1:00pm nursing emmett.
2:00pm chatting with emmett while eating a late lunch of leftovers. matt is not a fan of eating leftovers that are too old. i, on the other hand, have absolutely no shame in my leftovers game and will eat dangerously old leftovers without a second thought. this lunch consisted of leftover pasta with pork and mustard greens, combination fried rice, tofu and green beans, and black bean chicken.
3:00pm playing with emmett in the nursery. these days, emmett seems to enjoy covering his face with whatever is available. he always pulls blankets up over his face, pushes his face into couch cushions when lying on his back on the couch, or pushes his face into someone’s thigh if he/she is next to him on the couch. seems safe, right?
4:00pm walking through the disgusting dirty melty slush to go to an exercise class.
5:00pmish getting distracted while walking home. these days, my taste in clothing is geared towards simple pieces with interesting details. club monaco was calling my name as i walked by. i wandered in to look quickly at the cute spring clothes they have at the moment and wandered out even more grumpy about the dumb winter. look at those cute skirts and shorts and things. i love cute skirts and shorts and things.
6:00pm video chatting with a friend.
7:00pm getting ready to go out again. i was still feeling antsy and cabin fevery so we decided to go out to dinner instead of cooking at home. i bundled emmett up while we waited for matt to pick us up.
8:00pm eating dinner. we went to salam where they have the best hummus in the world and some pretty darn good kibbeh.
9:00pm hanging out with my boys before putting emmett to bed. benny is still only mildly interested in emmett. i have a feeling this will change when emmett starts to eat solid foods and begins flinging food all over the kitchen.
i would like to note for the record that i have had five kinds of pie today.
1) leftover thai green curry veggie pot pie
2) mashed potatoes, pickle, mushroom savory pie
3) apple cranberry pie
4) fat elvis pie (pretzel, peanut butter, chocolate)
5) banana cream pie
it has been an excellent day.
last month, i focused on experimenting in the kitchen. overall, i’m pretty happy with how the month went. i definitely tried out some new dishes (especially some korean dishes) that had previously intimidated me and know i’ll feel more confident when tackling these dishes in the future. however, i’m not sure how experimental i really was overall. a lot of what i cooked might have been new to me in terms of the dish, but didn’t really require learning any new techniques or trying ingredients that are outside of my comfort zone. but, i’m really happy with how much we cooked and how little food we wasted. we barely threw anything out. matt and i cooked/ate a significant amount of our meals at home in february. and i feel like i can say that we cooked real food as opposed to throwing random things together to eat. it’s nice to know that we don’t have to leave the house to treat ourselves to a good meal and to know that we can look forward to a meal that we cook for ourselves.
when i project out into the future, i have this hope that when emmett is old enough to have friends over to eat or i’m baking treats for his classmates for his birthday or something, they will be excited because they’ll know that they food that comes from our house is at least somewhat tasty. i also want to continue to work towards having a kitchen where little food is wasted and many recipes are tested. i guess this is all to say that last month’s focus is going to be an ongoing goal in our home. t-bag brought me a book called an everlasting meal - cooking with economy and grace that talks about just that - carrying the bits and bobs (in t-bag’s words) of one meal into the next and saving food while making meals tastier by doing so. i’m really looking forward to reading it and applying some of those principles in our home.
for march, i will focus on using my time wisely.
my maternity leave is over in mid-march. one part of me already dreads it, the other part of me is eager to get back to work on my dissertation and to get back into the rhythm of school again.
for that first half of march, i want to really take advantage of the luxury of having all the time in the world for emmett. this shouldn’t be too tough since emmett is pretty amazing to spend time with.
the second half of march is going to be trickier. for that half i want to work on establishing a way to manage family life and work life. we are going to have a nanny for tuesday, wednesday, thursday. i also plan to work while emmett naps on monday and friday and in chunks of time over the weekend while matt watches emmett. this plan sounds okay in theory, but i’m a little nervous about how it will look in reality. gone are the days of working as much as i want wherever and whenever i want. now i have to squeeze a significant amount of work into not that much time. and, more importantly, a significant amount of life into the time outside of those hours.
when i step back and think about the things i love (family and friends), the work i do (school, which, by the way, i also love), and the things i need to support those two (a home we all feel comfortable in, the ability and time to exercise [i have realized over the years that exercise is my ultimate stress relief and i need it to think more clearly, sleep more soundly, and be generally in a better mood]), i really wonder how i will find the time to do it all effectively. to give matt and emmett and benny the attention they deserve, to give my work the attention it necessitates, and to give myself the attention i need to be the best version of me. so far, all i’ve come up with is that i can’t waste too much time. the time i do have, i have to manage well and use wisely. what this will look like, i have no idea. i’ll keep you posted.